Lee …

I love you. More than I’ve ever loved anyone or anything. You’re the first thing I think of when I wake up and the last thing on my mind when I fall asleep. I want nothing more than to finally be by your side. I know things have been a bit rough lately but I’m glad we’re still ok. You mean the world to me and I don’t want to live without you. Thank you for taking me back c: You complete me Lee. You’re the only one I’ll ever want. And I will always love every single thing about you. To me you’re absolute perfection <3

GERMANY:

July 14th, 2012~

Hi baby c: I sent you IMs on windows live messenger and it said it’d deliver them when you sign on but I dunno if it actually will and so I’m making this post to be sure. There’s not much to say since nothing has really happened so far. The plane ride was annoying as always. It’s impossible to get comfortable enough to sleep. And then when you’re just about to fall asleep someone makes a noise or the person next to you moves or you hit turbulence or they turn the lights on. SOOO basically I got an hour of sleep. It’s boring as always here. It’s also freezing here and I brought mostly shorts because I thought it was gonna be warm. ANND you just logged onto Windows Live so I’m gonna stop writing on here now and talk to you xP I love you!! <333

July 16th, 2012:

HOLY SHIT. Well for one, I just dropped my laptop on my face while trying to lay down and get comfortable. And two, you are by far the nicest, sweetest, most caring, loving, compassionate, modest, honest, most adorable, hottest, funniest, and overall most amazing and perfect guy I’ve ever met. Not even just guy, you’re the most perfect person I’ve ever met in general. And you always will be <3 You have no clue how nice it feels to know how much you care about me. Well I mean maybe you do because I care about you more than I care about anyone and anything in the world and I try to let you know but maybe I don’t show/tell you enough. Lee, you are everything to me. You are never not on my mind. Every second of every day I’m thinking about you. Whether I’m in the car, just reading a book, laying in bed, watching tv, eating, literally anything; I’m thinking about what it’d be like to do whatever I’m doing with you by my side. You are all I find myself looking forward to anymore. When anyone talks about the future whether it’s what college I go to, where I’ll live when I’m older, what’s gonna happen next summer, all I can think is that I don’t really care what or where I am or what I’m doing as long as I’ve got you. I am in love with you. And not the type of love you find in relationships these days. I mean true love. Destiny. Soul mates. I know I will never be able to put my feelings for you into words, but to me you are perfection. Every single thing about you. Even when you tell me about all the things you’re insecure about, I end up just loving you more and more and I feel even closer to you. And knowing that you care about me enough to go look up the effects of birth control or that you worry about getting diseases because you don’t want to die before we meet xD ugh you make me feel so special and happy. And I will try my absolute hardest to do the same for you. Because if you’re happy, then I’m happy c: And I love how easy it is to talk to you. We can go from talking about our days, to how much we love eachother, to food, to sex, to family guy, to how much we hate other people, to more sex, to bottling farts, stealing eachother’s underwear, and then 4 hours later we’re still talking and the smile hasn’t left my face for a second. It’s funny cuz every night before I go to sleep I’ll always imagine us doing stuff we were talking about. Even the really weird stuff xD and I’ll think about us getting married and having kids and how great it’s gonna be living with you, since having you as my boyfriend is already so amazing and you’re 2000 miles away and then when I wake up I’ll go over all the things I love about you in my head and think about being able to talk to you ina bit and then my day is instantly great from the start. I used to set my standards from stupid romance movies because I didn’t know what it was really like to be in love and it seemed so nice. And everyone would complain that there were no guys out there that were as great as the guys in the movies but fuck that. You’re a billion times better than any guy in a romance movie and you’re sweeter and more caring and so much more perfect than they, or anyone could ever be. And being in love with you is nothing like they portrayed it, it’s SO much better. I know I just wrote like a shit ton but to be honest I could write a novel about all the things I love about you and about our relationship. You’re so much more than just my boyfriend. You’re my soulmate, my best friend, my everything. And you’re all mine <3 and I’m all yours c: If I could say I do and marry you right now, I would do it in a heartbeat. And I know to some people that may sound silly because we’re so young, but I can promise you and anyone else, that what I feel for you is real. And not age, time, distance, or other people’s opinions will ever change that. Because like I just said to you a few hours ago, I would walk naked with you, holding your hand around town and I wouldn’t care what anyone else thought. Because as long as you think I’m still the shit, that’s all that matters <3 We’re all that matters :)

I truly love you Lee. With all my heart and everything that is me. And no matter what anyone says, they won’t be able to change that. <333

July 17th, 2012:

Hey c: I can’t stop thinking about you, as usual :P Hopefully you’re sleeping well <3 I wish I could come sleep with you. I always sleep better when I imagine you holding me x3 So tomorrow it’s supposed to be warm finally and we’re supposed to go down to the lake and go fishing. Maybe I’ll swim some too idk it depends. But if I’m not on windows live, that’s why. Though hopefully I’ll be back by then cuz talking to you is the highlight of my day. <3 Also, we went to this crafts store today and bought this leatherish string stuff and some beads so I’m gonna start making your necklace soon c: I all of the sudden got really exhausted lol so I’m gonna go get ready for bed. I’ll talk to you tomorrow. I love you! <3

July 18th, 2012:

So I’m currently sitting in my room listening to my parents have a pity party and complain about all the stuff they hafta deal with and how my brother and I never help and blah blah. Which is stupid because they make us help all the fucking time. Also, a jet just flew over the house or something and it sounded like the world was ending jesus christ I almost pissed my pants. ANYWAYS I hope works good :o my parents are trying to figure out what we’re doing today and I wanted to go fishing but nooo we hafta go walk around some stupid town AGAIN. Well idk if that’s officially what we’re doing but that’s what my mom wants to do. Even though we JUST DID THAT. All I wanna do is catch fish and go swimming and then be home by the time you come online but I guess that’s too much to ask. Sooooooo if I’m not online, I’m probably suffering looking at ancient buildings and pretty flowers or something idk. But I do know that I love you! and hopefully I’ll be back to talk to you <33 hjrsilkjuiojskdhu you’re so amazing :3 hehe. I’ll talk to ya soon. Bye baby <33

July 19th,2012:

Omg come back on windows live D: I’m not mad at you, I was fishing and I left windows live on on my tablet D: I’m sorry. I love you! Come back D:

July 20th, 2012:

We’re leaving ina few minutes :/ hopefully your food was good c: I wish I could talk to you all day instead of going there :( blah I hafta go now. I love you! bye <33

July 21st, 2012:

Leeeeeeeeee c: Sorry I couldn’t write anything when I got back home, I pretty much just got in bed and passed out when we got back cuz it was already 1:00. It was pretty boring there. I basically sat and watched while Phillip and my brother played guitar and then video games. And then I guess Phillip works at some summer camp so him and my brother went and watched little kids for a few hours while I sat there awkwardly with Denis, who was too afraid to talk to me. He was too shy to speak english and I don’t speak german so that was weird lol. AND THEN we went out to eat and came back to the house and played guitar hero for a while and then we went home. So yea it was pretty boring. I just wanted to come home and talk to you the entire time :c  and then my tablet started going insane at 3:00 so I guess I got what I wanted eventually :P though I was like half asleep lol. When I first heard it I was like O.O waaaattt? and then I realized that I still had windows live signed in on my tablet so I basically ran to it and was all yayy Lee c: though I don’t think I fully woke up until we stopped talking cuz after you signed out I realized and I was all sad xD I ended up just laying in bed thinking about you for the next half an hour til I fell asleep. And I kept picturing us sitting on a couch next to each other and then you’d put your arm around me and I’d lean into you and put my head on your shoulder c: and then at breakfast all I kept thinking was “woow, I really love him. More than anything in the world. He’s the one. I wanna marry him some day” and every 10 seconds something else about you would pop into my head and I’d just be like asdjkgksghgikulgi. I just pictured myself sitting at breakfast and actually saying that. My mom would ask me a question and I’d be like “asdfjjklghbrkfdhgios” lol IDEK. ALL I KNOW IS THAT I LOVE YOU SO FUCKING MUCH, OKAY? I really really really really do c: Oh, on another note: we’re going shopping today at around 3 which is 9:00 for you. And that’s when you usually get online so we can talk. Which means that we aren’t going to be able to talk D: which makes me depressed. SO I’m gonna write more in here when I get home later, and you should message me again before you go to work if you have time so we can at least talk a little bit. Hopefully work is okay o: I’ll talk to you later c: bye for now baby <333 I love you! :3

Hi again :P Just got home. I MISSED YOU BY 20 MINUTES D: ugh if only we had headed home a bit earlier :c oh well… hopefully we can talk a bit tonight if you have some time. But I’m going mini-golfing tomorrow with my stepdad’s aunt :/ though hopefully we’ll get to talk before I leave o: blahhhhhhh. Oh, btw acne medications with benzoyl peroxide or salicylic acid work well and if you put it on and wait a minute or two before rinsing your face instead of rinsing it off immediately it tends to be more effective. And using hot water to rinse your face before putting it on, and then cold water to rinse it off closes your pores more. Oh and make sure whatever you’re drying your face with is clean or you’ll be putting dirt in your pores and they’ll close and you’ll end up with blackheads. And avoid touching your face as much as possible :o at least this works for me. I’m just trying to help lol I feel like I just said way too much. Okay gonna talk about something else now… I hafta start making your necklace at some point lol. I haven’t decided what I wanna do with it yet though cuz idk what kinda style you’d wear. So you hafta let me know what you want it to look like or I’m just gonna guess. Well there’s not really any rush but I wanna use any of the extra stuff to make myself an anklet cuz I cut all the string ones I had off. annnnnnnndddd yea. I don’t really know what to write. I’m really hungry. I’m gonna go get some food. Maybe I’ll write more later :) I love you baby <333 Hope you’re sleeping well c:

July 22nd, 2012:

Sooo it looks like we’re not gonna be able to talk again :/ We’re leaving in about 40 minutes and you’ll still be at work Dx Mehhh I hate this. I wish I could text you. It would make everything so much easier :c UGH. Well I guess I should go get ready. I’ll write more later <3 I love you c:

D: I miss you. If you have time before work, message me on windows live again. Ugh I cannot believe I missed talking to you to go over my stepdad’s aunts. Not only did we not go mini golfing, we just sat there for 8 hours. That’s literally all we did. We sat, ate, and talked. And I didn’t talk because I don’t speak fucking German. So it was the most boring thing I’ve ever done. I just wanna go home already Dx I hafta act all perfect here and there’s like a billion things that you hafta do a certain way because it’s “how germans do it” and I’m just sitting there like…. well I’m not german so why should I give a shit? Blah. And my grandma is SO FUCKING ANNOYING OMG. She constantly nags us about doing stuff “wrong” and she has something bossy to say about EVERYTHING. I swear I want to duck-tape her mouth. Lol. I’ll stop complaining now. I really hope we’re not going anywhere til later tomorrow cuz I wanna talk! We talk so much more when we’re on windows live lol. When we text we only say a few things every hour and on windows live we like spam eachother xD I can’t wait til you get your computer and we can skype c: and then next summer when I come visit and then the summer after that when I move it 8D lol. Well it’s getting pretty late so I’m gonna try sleeping. Hopefully I’ll talk to you later and tomorrow c: I loooooveee youuuu! <33333

July 23rd, 2012:

Ommmmmgggggggggggggggggg another day we don’t get to talk Dx I hate this. Why can’t my family just go out for a few hours and then come back in time for us to talk :c I don’t understand why my stepdad makes everything take all day D:< As always, message me if you have time before work. I don’t think there’s much planned for tomorrow so HOPEFULLY we can talk. I kept seeing stuff all day that made me think of you lol :) you’re so amazing Lee c: I love you more than anything in the world <3 Gonna go get ready for bed now. Talk to you tomorrow if all goes well c: bye baby <3

July 24th, 2012:

Leeeeeeeeeeeee! I got your two messages last night but then maybe it signed me out? idk. I checked it this morning and it said I was offline so I signed in and saw what you said and then I was all mad that I didn’t wake up :c I really wanted to talk to you Dx but we’re going to this garden store for an hour and then we’ll be back by the time you get home from work so we can talk today! :D Well I’m gonna go find some clothes to wear since the sooner I leave, the sooner I get home :P talk to you soon c: I love you <3

July 25th, 2012:

Going to the store to pick up food and stuff so we should be back soon. Probably in an hour or two so by like 9ish for you if not earlier :)  I love you!

July 26th, 2012:

:O we’re going to get italian ice cream at 2:00 (7:00 am for you) but that shouldn’t take any longer than an hour or so unless my stepdad decides to actually drive to italy to get Ice cream >.< sooooooo if you don’t log onto windows messenger soon, then I’ll talk to you ina bit :) Eye luv yew <3

o so I didn’t actually go with them to get ice cream cuz apparently we’re going out to dinner later and I wanted to be online when you got on so we could talk before I hafta go ;O SOO you should come online now c: